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Valentines Day has come and gone, but we spent it the way the was "us." A homemade heart shaped pizza (the kiddos and I attempted), the Charlie Brown Valentines Day special, and ice cream sundaes. Simple ... but us.

The past two weeks have been a bit of a blur. Both kiddos have been sick with some funky thing going around, and it just seems to linger. We've had plenty of missed school, resting on the couch, snuggled under our trusty old red blanket, watching movies and pretty much staying put.

It's funny, one would think being in would allow time to completely get caught up on household chores, projects and anything of the like. Seems to me that just tending to Bub and Pie was how I spent most my time (I'm not complaining, they come first), fitting in a chores here and there. The house didn't get the mega overhaul as I had thought. In fact, nothing close. But that's ok.

I believe God gives us seasons of rest when we need them. And although I was mother, nurturer and nursemaid ... I was able to relax, rest .... right along with them.

I was able to fit a couple of photography sessions in as they were already scheduled. And this time of year I was able to take advantage of a couple of nice days (and now we are back to pouring rain!) One was a pregnancy sessions with a sweet couple awaiting the birth of their first son. The other was for a vintage furniture shop. One was intimate. The other big set ups in an overgrown field with an old barn. So diverse. So fantastic.

I enjoy my work. I love having a little space. But I question .... Is it the right space? The right timing? Should I work with the kiddo? The questions can swirl round and round in my mind ... they do. But I remind myself that I leave the choice to the Lord. My prayers are for doors to open or shut. And whatever may be the right thing, simply become clear.

They did. The big question was working with the kiddos. But they enjoy what I do and at times are involved. Pie is my artistic one, so creative. She loves watching me edit and loves to share her ideas with me.

Being a wife and mother is me. My first priority. Teaching, loving, tending, just being there. Yet, I do enjoy the work I do when I am blessed and able to do so. I love the artistry, expressing myself and my goal, letting my work bless others.

As far as the space .... it all fell into place. I couldn't have orchestrated it any better if I planned it out myself. The door opened. But it's new, I'm a little nervous. As Bub would say, "Mom, just have the hippy flow." (Be mellow and go with the flow). Sometimes I have it, sometimes I don't. :)

Balance .... I crave balance. I desire God's direction. I want the hippy flow!


I want to be full in all I do. In all relationships. In all activities.

I have many awesome relationships. And I have some not so awesome relationships. Or at least not so awesome in my eyes. I can be quick to judge, quick to blame. Yet, relationships are about acceptance, accepting one another for who we are. Building up not tearing down. I know myself and how I think things should be a certain way. My way. I am trying to teach the kiddos about compromise and thinking of others .... and its just as much of a lesson for me as it is for them.

Right now baskaetball season is in full swing. I am coaching, along with my dear friend, Bub's (and her son's) 5th grade team. It's awesome to be engaged with the boys. And what a neat group they are. They have gone through elementary school together and I have watched them all grow up a bit. They are so fun, so energetic, and so frustrating at times! Got to love 5th graders! It's a true joy to be a part of this team ....

Such a random trail of thoughts .... but it's my thought process. Now off to bed and listen to the rain ...