Random thoughts of the day ...

Ok ... so January is upon us. And what a strange time it is. Nothing bad ... its the dead of winter, cold and pretty quiet around here. Aside from school and a few activities, we mostly find ourselves snuggled up in the house, usually by the fire, playing games. And the house usually reflects whatever it is we are cooking ... lots of stews, soups, homemade rolls and cookies. All that good hearty winter food.

So whats the strange time? Maybe strange isn't the right word. Off, perhaps. And I think I am he one that is off. A bit introspective, anti-social, if you will.

January always is a hard month financially ... the photography business certainly isn't booming. In fact, its down right slow during the winter months. It has been that way for 10 years now, yet, I always seemed to be surprised and a little alarmed. That, plus just coming off the the holidays, things just seem to be tight.

So I find myself staying home A LOT! Ironically though, there's no place I'd rather be. Home ... playing with the kiddos, doing crafts with my daughter (truly recycling things we already have).

Then there's my upcoming birthday. I will be 40 next Wednesday! YIKES! Age has never bothered me ... I've never given it any thought. But this last week or so, I've been contemplating 40. I'm not overly-sensitive about it or depressed, or anything of the sort but I certainly have some mixed emotions going on.

I've been looking back on my life ... where I came from, what I have done, decisions I've made (the good ones and the bad) ... then I look at my own children and wonder what kind of choices they will make when they grow up.

On one hand, I certainly wish I could go back and do some things differently. But on the other, I would never want to be anywhere else. I am blessed with my life ... my family.

I guess this has been a season of retrospect ...

So my 20's were about adventure ... living quite spontaneously (and we still do to a degree).
My 30's were about starting a family and a business ...
My 40's ... we'll see.